I can't make games when I am angry

[tgoc]

Like right now. I just can't do it. It brings out the worse in me. I just want to express all my negativity in one game and it's just one big mess. I can't stick with a project either. I need to make a game that is true to myself. I'd go for a walk but that wouldn't help.

[cactus]

Eating and drinking usually helps me when I'm angry. Maybe watching a movie or something to take your mind of what's making you aggro. I hate it when my feelings get in the way of my creativity, really annoying.

[tomrussell]

I've been there before myself. The problem with my anger is that while it gives me a lot of energy, I just can't stop and focus it in a given direction. I have to agree with Cactus about eating and drinking and doing something to take your mind off of it. Sex (with another person or solo for that matter) seems to do it too-- it burns off the energy and then you got those post-orgasmic brain/body chemicals calming you down.

I usually have a number of creative projects going on at once, and sometimes I can channel the anger towards one of them-- I have an "angry project", whether a game or a story or a drawing or comic, something that I won't necessarily be making for the consumption of others but that lets me vent. Sometimes that gives me another idea that I *can* use creatively in another project, and I start working on that and, bingo, it's all good.

I know what it's like also to be unable to stick with a project. My best advice is to do a lot of your thinking before you do the "work"; that is, get the game planned out as much as you can in your head so that you're less likely to slow down and lose interest once you start actually putting it together.

[tgoc]

I think I started a similar topic awhile back. I don't know why I keep starting topics here for help. Oh well.

It's really frustrating though you see. If I was anyone else but me they'd be capable of fixing this problem if only I could muster up the courage. I lost a friend or two in this little game somebody is playing. Sometimes I wonder if there really are "evil" people out there.

I think my problem is I plan too much about things about then they don't work out the way I want them to. I have too much time to think about the future and can never follow my own words or ideas. If I would just let things go with the flow it would be a lot easier. It's a miserable feeling. I realize the problem deals mainly with myself and if only someone wiser and better could take over my body for just a few moments to fix this problem.

I thank you gentlemen for the advice (LOL at the sex thing). I just can't stay focused I am so confused and angry. Although... a confusing and angry project would be quite interesting.

Question: I am seriously thinking about getting some weed to help with this problem. Is this a good idea? Does it help? I have never done any drugs before and wouldn't mind getting some insight from an experienced user.

Another thing I would like to vent. I wish people would stop asking me for council and advice when I can't fix my own problems. People vent to me all the time, you think after how much I help them someone would be able to help me! Perhaps I am always over thinking the situation. I really wish my feelings could settle down.

You know, you never really realize how good things in the past are until a year or so later when you can reflect and think about the good times. It seems like I get so caught up in the bad things the little good things get hidden under the bad things, which is why I either remember the really good or really bad times, and nowhere in between, which seems to be the best of times. I hope this makes sense.

Ahhh... shit.